Addicted

Road to TVXQ fandom

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 11:32:13 GMT

I've posted this on the Phoenix forum but since it's a personal stuff I felt like posting it on my journal too.

I really don't remember when I first listened to them....how I wish I would so I could mark that day and remember it forever /haha ...

I've always have been intersted in asian culture especially chinese & japanese but I got to know asian entertainment only in 2005 when I finally had the internet set up in home ....I think first I started to listen to Kackt&Hyde&j-rock.....then shortly after to j-pop -Arashi&Kat-tun - (it was because of the Kimi wa petto manga XD)...then of course I got into k-pop...first one I start listening to was Rain /great ....lol...but strangely I didn't got to know DBSK due to all this....lol....some of you may heard this story so I'm sorry if you have to hear it again /dead ....I guess it was in 2006 and not 2005...I was already trying to learn japanese and was searching for online lessons on youtube when I saw this:

and I instantly had fallen in love with JJ's eyes /spazz, even if he doesn't look at his best there....his eyes had a magnetic effect on me....I had no idea who they are...I still remember how I was searching info about them and got confused over DBSK, TVXQ, THSK /haha ....so I didn't fall in love with their voice....I just got hypnotized by someone /love ....weird thought for a few days I only kept reading about them on forums lol...finally decided to check their music...the first thing I saw was a live compilation with other artist were they sung 'O' Jung Ban Hap ...sadly I can't find it anymore...it was about 11 minutes long...lol...from that point on it's the history of all of us /oho ...I can't get enough of them...they have just blown up my mind....lol...if before I payed attention to other artists too since I knew them I maybe only listen to other artists but that's all...and if I don't listen or see them for a few days(sometimes it happens)...when I see/hear them I have this feeling...how should I say it..I realize how much I missed their voice, their faces, their smile....I'm sure most of you understands me...and I'm really glad I got to know them...after some time some bad things happened but they were always there for me making me smile, making me happy...the bound they are able to create between them and fans...fans and other fans is just amazing...for me beside looks and voice they represent a dream, never giving up, hope...lol...before knowing them I always laughed when my friends were fans of bsb, N'sync and other such boybands....DBSK being the first boyband I ever became a fan of....lol...I gues is wrong to say boyband since I look at them as wonderful artists, wonderful people...and what's the best is that they've got the whole package ...their looks is as beautiful as their voice..their voice as beautiful as their soul....it is as the looks and voice are a reflection of their beautiful soul....lol...sometimes I think what if some part of it is just an act...but in the end who cares.....illusion or not....life it self it just like an illusion, a dream...so why not dream beautiful /*_* .....I may seem to actually pay more attention to JaeJae an Chun but the truth is in time I truly got into all of them and I came to really understand why 5-1=0.....DBSK thank you /*_*

I'll just stop here it already turned into an essay /haha ....

I really hope they'll last forever, and that the music of their soul will always shine as strong as now...lol....

shoot me now if I made you read this... /2gg.

Late Spring Clean Up

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 11:19:51 GMT

It's been some time since I posted on this place...since back in december...I'm sorry my LJ friends for not having time to check your journals. The bad news is that I probably won't have to much time for it from now on either. So if you feel like removing me from your friends list I will understand. On a brighter side I'm in the mood of keeping a personal , moslty fandom journal here...at least that is what this journal is supposed to be about and I have to do this coz I keep spamming the phoenix forum with lots of my ramblings. Reply to this post if you're still interested in remaining my LJ friend. For JaeChun stuff please go here: the_rice_flower or jaechunsoulmate.blogspot.com

P.S. Is my sweet Len's birthday today and I haven't prepared anything. It will turn out into a belated present again. But then that's so like me XD. If you read this: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SIS!!! WISH YOU LOTS OF LOVE, FUN AND JAEHO ! XD

GDA WE WON!!! (LiLy's Belated Reaction)

Thu, 11 Dec 2008 11:24:13 GMT

I'm always proud to be a DBSK fan....sort of...coz I don't show that to the people around me...well anyway....but when I hear songs like Bye Love Bye I feel how my heart grows XD...and I'm amazed by their voice, talent....I noticed Min sings nowadays longer parts...he has such an powerfull voice....and I think I said this before but I'm loving JJ's voice more when he sings in Korean....donno why....maybe coz he sounds husky XXD....Chunnie is trully a genius....be he worked hard to reach this level...I saw nowadays on youtube Micky's mission imposible...and U-know said Chun goes to sleep later then the other ones coz he's always composing.....this was like 3-4 years ago XD....well I think I'll post that video on Phoenix and JaeChun_Intl so we could spazz more....I hope he'll have more songs included in their next album ^^ .......

Actually I wanted to make this on a congratulation post .....lol.....Because of the GDA...did you saw how everyone danced to Mirotic in the end?...I hope in Japan they will receive some big award too...so it would compensate with the fact they won't attend awards in Korean by the end of the year....

Love you all my LJ friends.....even if I rarely stop by your journal...T___T

*hugs everyone*

P.S. I still have lots of people to whom reply..I didn't forgot about that....

DO THE MEME NOW!! XD

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 14:09:31 GMT

Hello people..long time not posting something...my header is hotlinked ..and I'm to lazy to upload it on a new account....will be back in a few days....anyways I'm still tired from my trip....I went to Venice this weekend...

I grabbed this one from hikary22 who took it from adachibiko

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and bake a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

T____T don't know to post it the same way you did ...could you share the code with me :D

!!! ~ Annoucement ~!!!

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 17:10:11 GMT

I decided to make another journal for my jaechun fangirling since I know not everyone from my F-list is into them....lol....so from now on I'm only going to post DBSK fangirling here and random life stuff and about my other addictions.....XD....so the new place would be.....

the_rice_flower

so if you still want to fangirl about soulmates with me please add that journal......*kisses for everyone*

HIATUS MODE

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 02:03:42 GMT

FROM AUGUST 27 TILL THE END OF SEPTEMBER.
MISS ME A LOT ^^
SOME EXAMS, THAT'S WHY.
TAKE CARE ^___^

This love...jaechun love

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 02:00:45 GMT

New layout *claps*...and new header...I tried out my ps skills but this is what I come up with if I use LQ scans XD....

since I'm going on a hiatus for a month I'll leave these two dorks to keep you company ^^

^ sticky jaejoong

^ was he thinking about JJ's delicious lips?

JJ: "I told you Chunnie is here with me"

^ reaching out for you babe

^__________^

^ jj's hand? <3

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^ one of my fav jaechun pics :love:

^ cute beyond words.....

^ holding on you babe ^^

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cute jaechun clap ^^

^ soulmates lost in their own world

^ jaechun trademark clap

^ from a hug performance ...jj was actually singing this part:
"I want to be your bed in your room for just a day
I want to make you go to sleep, comfortably, warmly in my arms"
interesting right XD....did he really meant it?

^ never can get enough of this one

^ I guess you all know this event....where Chunnie was huggling JJ on stage....after that JJ gaved him back all the huggles...

for a moment I thought Chun was holding JJ's hand...XD...but anyway....Chun's expression is priceless....
he looks like begging his hyung for somethnig....I wonder what this would be...XD.....
he's like: "Please hyung let me just one more time'...haha...
this reminds me of the 3rd korean album dvd.....where JJ said no one can resist Chunnie's charm...
I bet in the end he always does what Chunnie asks him....coz he's like that.....lol....warm hearted... .
was he begging for a kiss lol? ...XD......sorry I just couldn't stop myself....
and it looks like he had no clue someone was watching XD....so JaeChun caught in private...
people say chunnie was a bit "happy" there and wanted just one more glass of...I don't know what was that

ok....sorry for the huge pic spam..I would be more then happy if you comment and talk about them .....

Credits: as tagged + baidu + purple_winter@JaeChun_Intl (a.k.a jaely)

[This journal is semi f-locked]

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 01:40:25 GMT

Comment here to be added..... you can find here random stuff about my life..
dbsk fangirling and other things I may like XD...I love to make friend so feel free to add me...
I think I'll only lock the very personal stuff....

I moved all my jaechun fangirling to the_rice_flower

[PG 13]Ficlet - "One moment, one second"

Wed, 13 Aug 2008 12:21:40 GMT

Title: One moment, one second
Pairing: JaeChun
Rating: PG13
Genre: angst, fluff, smut
Form: Ficlet

It was pure and translucent....it reminded him of something....reminded him of the past....pages from an old, dusty book......empty pages....he wanted to smile...that steam everywhere...he closed his eyes, wind playing his hair...if he could concentrate...his lazy eyelids refused to rise... for a while... only for a while... the storm was gone...countless sparkling pearls reflecting that stranger face...for a second he felt lost...just a second...a sweet trill as their fingers touched ...he knew that touch...that softness...every piece of him recalled it...he turned around...the warmth that unwrapped his hearth turned into a beautiful smile...

"Good morning my Boo !" YooChun said

The stranger in the strangers eyes didn't scared him anymore...he reached out enfolding fingers...

"Good morning LOVE"

Knowing love exists was enough for JaeJoong...

--- CUT --- screamed Changmin.

Chun came close to JaeJoong whispering: "I see little Joongie wants a little bit of love too"

JJ blushed and hurried to the studio exit. The others were stareing awkwardly.

Chun smiled...it was a mischievous one.

FIN~
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oh yeas so due to frustration of no jaechun stories at the bigeast station I thought I should write my own little story....
the jaechun girl from in me is happy today ^^.....guess you know why XD.......

I just can die happily now....omg Arena pics

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 06:28:38 GMT

How is possible they turned so hot....really....or is it still to early and my brain is not functioning properly XD....to much fangirling last night damaged my head......

Credits: as tagged + hero baidu XD

bye bye...I'll leave these two alone XD

Mash Game: Predict Your Future at eSPIN-the-Bottle

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 17:13:49 GMT



		I will marry jae.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in PRAGUE in our fabulous House.
		We will have 9 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a BLUE MERCEDES.
		I will spend my days as a DESIGNER, and live happily ever after.

Still alive.......if anyone misses me

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 16:01:46 GMT

I'm still alive.....XD.....hm...I'm dealing with some problems and decisions out here in the real world....for those who go to jae-chun soulmates you may still see around....lol.....of course I'm updated with news about the boys.......but no time to post to much.......>.<....but I think things are going to get better now.....:P.....jae-chun keeps me going on XD.....I found recently some cute moments XD...but since not to many people are interested these days on jaechun I fangirl by myself....I should seriously make order in my jae-chun archive.....coz I it's already hard to find anything there.......hm.....so kisses and hugs for everyone.......hope I will be able to drop at everyone's journal to check the updates ^^.......

just some jaechun pics...not jaechun moments.....XD

Credits: as tagged + baidu + daum

PICS[DBSK group] + one song share + drama synopsis + random rannting

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 08:58:36 GMT

I promised 1986s that my next journal entry will be a Chun pic spam....TT__TT...sorry but I haven't found yet time to look trough my huge DBSK photo collection....

Should I rant a bit about my life XD....better not coz if I start it would be hard for me to stop....and actually it's nothing really interesting happening in my life...in the next 2 months I should be kind of busy with school but knowing myself I think I won't be able to leave the fandom world...deadlines for tons of projects are coming so I am supposed to start if I want to finish them on time....(this never happens XD)...

After my previous journal entry izu2miny asked me for these group pics

here they are

XD.....not quiet as expected....I do have somewhere all the individual pics if you want them just let me not and I'll add them here :)

Also umachanxo asked me for Utada Hikaru's - First Love...sorry Uma coz it took me some time to upload it TT__TT...here you go: http://www.4shared.com/file/44779170/bd51f74e/_002__Utada_Hikaru_-_First_Love.html (XD sorry I don't know how to post links....*ashamed*...just copy-paste the link)....now the song it was used as the opening for the jdrama called: Majo no Jouken/ Witch's requirement / Forbidden love....I really enjoyed watching it even it's an old drama filmed in 1999...lol...now why I'm telling you this?...it's because for my surprise when I watched Yahoo Live Talk, DBSK said they watched this drama too not so long ago...(to whom I already told this...sorry that you have to hear it again)..XD.... I didn't expect them to like this kind of drama....XD...here is a short summary from wiki:

Michi, a 26 year old high school math teacher, tentatively accepts her boyfriend's proposal of marriage, uncertain of her love for him but feeling pressure from her father and society to do what is expected of her. Hikaru, a 17 year old boy frustrated by his home life with his single mother and having been expelled from many high schools for bad behavior, enters Michi's class as a new transfer student. As their relationship grows they realize that they both feel that they have lost themselves to the pressures of those around them, and it is this common bond that draws them dangerously close. What follows is a heart-wrenching story of forbidden love where Michi must face society's judgement for corrupting a minor, abandoning her fiance, and disappointing her parents and co-workers.

This drama teard my heart appart...but I still feel I would love to watch it again....

I'll end it here coz I have to rush to classes....bye bye...kisses...

oh forgot to credit the pics: as tagged + iTVXQ

at izu2miny's request added individual pics from the same photoshooting

SuSu

Micky:

Max:

U-know:

Credits: as tagged + iTVXQ

[Pics]My foxy JJ

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 18:52:37 GMT

This journal entry is especially for hikary22....but I hope everyone (if anyone ever reads my journal) will enjoy these pics with titian hair JJ...I think he can put on every hair color...but one of my favorites is this one.....enjoy......^__^...*drolls*...

XD.....omg....I can't get enough of him....

Fly Hero....fly.....^3^....

^ I'm so in love with this pic...*glomps JJ*

Now this one last pic......
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*glues nose to the monitor*

yep credits...credits goes to: as tagged + DNBN + baidu + iTVXQ

[PG-13]Prague - memories...

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 15:48:40 GMT

Title: Prague - memories...
Pairing: JaeChun
Rating: PG13
Form: Oneshot...for now XD

Do you still remember hyung when we went to Prague.......when we sneaked out the hotel on that chilly night...when we stopped at the Charles bridge as you wanted to see the sunrise.....we only had rainy days since we arrived, but that night...that night suddenly the heavy grey clouds were chased away, revealing that pale moon...as pale as your fay skin........we searched for Cassiopeia.....we searched for us....and we made a promise...a promise to never break apart...no matter what......to always hold off each other.

As we stayed there curled I prayed for time to stop......so I could remain like that.......forever in your embrace.....I felt protected, happy...the countless city lights reflected in the damp pavement....... the starry sky reflected in the undulating waves..reflected in your almond shaped eyes...I was jealous of the moon, of the sky, as I saw them mirrored in your orbs...I hoped one day when I peek through them I'll find myself there...imprinted on your iris...etched on your soul.....

I guess you didn't found out yet but you're there...I have your name tattooed on my heart ever since the first time my eyes laid on you....

Do you remember hyung when you told me that night that Prague was like love at first sight...that night when we arrived from the airport...we were tired, but you glued your nose on the car window and you peeped through the teeming rain..."Look...just look how beautiful it is"...you said there was something about those tall buildings and narrow paved streets...you felt like each alley leads to a enticing place..and each one has his own story waiting to be revealed...you said you know you'll never get bored of this city......

Hyung...this was how I felt...back then when we first met..I felt the same..and I still feel like that...even after this long way we came together....

You still remember hyung that night in Prague?...it was getting colder and colder as we were waiting for the sun to rise...fold in your arms I felt your shivering body...but you said you're not cold.... you smiled and placed a peck on my cheeks....close....too close to my lips...you were teasing me with those velvet lips....I know I blushed....I blushed like the sky does when the sun kisses it 's infinite veils....Do you remember all these hyung?....

I kept these memories vividly painted in my heart.......every second, every smile....the rhythm of your heart beats...I close my eyes and I can see you wrapped by that morning's sun beams....

But our promise....our promise...I can't keep it anymore.....I'm leaving... like a coward, I'm running away....I wish I could stay...you were and still are the most important to me...but as life broke us apart I had nothing left then the promise I made...to me, to you, to our fans.........

I pondered about all..about my feelings...and I figured out maybe it wouldn't be fair if won't let you know...you should know about all these things buried so deep into my heart....

Hyung all these years I wanted to say I love you....I always did....my heart, my soul...my everything was just for you....I'm leaving but my heart, my soul will eternally be yours.......

Park Yoochun

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As I read the last words I let the letter slide away trough my fingers.......I stand up from my chair....I was stunned...I never knew...I never suspected anything....after a long time tears started unstoppable to furrow my cheeks...it hurt.....it was like hundreds of needles piercing through my entire body...."You left Chun...you left...will I ever see you again?"...my eyes fall on the ring..the ring of a promise I made...she was waiting for me...I guess is too late........

As I tried to weep away those salty drops I felt my heart being ripped away into pieces.......to reveal something I never knew it existed...there it was...I finally saw it clearly for the first time...I bended holding the chair's back...I found myself mumbling the words..the words I knew now you wanted to hear so bad..."I love you too..do you hear me?"..I shouted......."I love you....I'm so sorry I didn't realized it before...please come back to me"...I didn't knew how to cope with all this.....I felt numbed...stunned...I stood like that holding my knees, crying till dawn..till the sky blushed kissed by the sun...and I remembered then...every little thing...so vividly like it was yesterday......I remembered you in my arms.....I remembered that night in Prague...........

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well..this is something I was expecting to write after I came from Prague........but never it's too late.....

Smile...and my heart will smile with you.....

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 21:34:40 GMT

Jus one baby JaeJae pic...
I mean form his childhood when he was a cute little baby

I was collecting for some time childhood JJ pics...when I came across this baby JJ pics...and I sudenly remembered his gorgeus smile from the 3rd live tour concert pics....the smile is still the same(he has teethes now XD)...and the eyes too...XD...lol...<3 JJ

[INTERVIEW] JaeJoong's life before debuting

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 20:50:31 GMT

When I read for the first tiem this interview my heart broke into thousands of pieces.....especially the last part..."If i didn't have you, I don't know where I would be in Seoul"....I felt for the first time the responsability of being a fan.....without them I wouldn't be who I am today...but they...they wouldn't be who they are today without us fans....so JJ cries...he cries when he is sad...when he remembers about his hard past...and probably he also sheds tears of happiness.....happiness of having the members and the fans...we all love them....don't we?...and I'm sure our true feelings reach them....so here is the interview......

"I got the interview now!! The original one is in Chinese and somebody translated into Thai..and then I translated into English for you guys!!
VJ :: Yunho and Junsu have already register for the university, right? And Changmin too! Congratulationfor you guys...I heard that Jaejoong have to practise singing and daincing so hard, so You had to leave high school, right?

JJ :: Yes, because I wanna do my best in what I really like.

VJ :: After you came to Seoul, it seem that you 're getting better.

JJ :: Yes, I worked a lot..I used to get a lot of works

VJ :: It seem that Work is in your blood?

Yunho :: yeah...work is his life.

VJ:: Is this true that you guys ate a lot of biscuits...Why didn't you eat some other kinds of food like noodles?

Junsu :: Jeajoong goesn't like that, but Changmin is always hungry..so he doesn't mind to eat ..'coz he can eat anything (Junsu and Changmin laughing,but Jaejoong didn't say anything)

VJ :: Really? Jeajoong.

JJ :: Actually, at that time we didn't have any money and we were so hungry, so of cause we couldn't choose what we wanna eat... (he seem like he wann cry)

VJ :: At that time, you didn't go by car or trains..but you walked to any places more than 3 hours, right?
JJ :: Yes...( and he started crting...Micky handed him tissues...Changmin didn't say anything and seem like he 's gonna cry too)

VJ :: Those things made you to fight and struggle so much, right? Was it too hard?
JJ didn't answer but crying

Micky :: From that time, he 's tried all his best in every works for the highest of success.
Yunho...hugged Jeajoong then...

JJ :: I would like to thanks CASSIOPEIA for supporting...If I didn't have you, I couldn't have today...I couldn't stand at this point, couln't sing on the stage...(then he cry a lot)...If i didn't have you, I don't know where I would be in Seoul....I don't know what to tell you....than this word...THANK....THANK YOU....REALLY THANK YOU....."

Credits: sekai_jr@soompi + TVXQ Thailand Fanclub!

Jaejoong Interview
{{soo sadd T_T}}

Hero: Yes, I want to look for stuff that i like.
VJ: You went through a lot after living in Seoul?
Hero: Yes, i did all kinds of job.
VJ: I heard that you sold blood?
U know: Its donating blood!
Hero: I donated blood for exchange of some biscuits as I've used up my money on the rental fees for my apartment. eyes getting red
VJ: You really went through a lot for some biscuits.. and I heard that you even ate left over food when doing a part time job as a waiter?
Xiah: Hero is not as hungry as Max!

Max laugh, Hero kept quiet

VJ: Hmmm? waiting for reply
Hero: For that time I really wanted my dream to come true and was really hungry..
VJ: Is that also a reason why you chose to walk for 3 hours to work and save down the money for transportation?
Hero: I did that before..cried out, Micky passes Hero some tissue

Max kept quiet and eyes turning red..

VJ: Ahh..you finally been through it..were there any other hard times?

Hero continued to cry..
Micky: Its okay now.. we've succeeded! pats Hero's shoulder
U know hugged Hero

Hero: I really thanked cassiopeia for supporting us. I never thought I would step on stage and perform for everyone. If is not you guys, i would still be wandering around Seoul. I really don't know what to say. continued crying Really thank you....crying...thank you!

Hero could not continue talking as he cried very badly.

Credit: TVXQ Forever Forum

Borred

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 09:00:59 GMT

I'm working now from some school suff but sudenly I became Jaechun hyper...so yeah...I thought I may share with who ever reads this journal a little bit of Jaechuness XD...I still need to work on my journal...XD...yeah so sorry everyone...I'm still learning...

Credits: jae-chun.net

[NG-17]As we kissed.....

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 03:11:02 GMT

This is the first time I wrote yaoi lemon...it's a birthday present for ellie...hm...I sorry it didn't
turned out better...my english is still to limitated...XD...lol..well..but I'll hope you'll enjoy it....
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- YooChun-ah, I'm borred...

It was that first hour in the morning when bitter a sweet coffee scent filled the room. An absent
minded YooChun was staring at the piano claps.

- We have today off....I don't know what to do, sobbed JJ.
- Hyung, please, put some cloths on, shoutted Micky when he finally looked up at the borred being.
You can't walk around the house naked like this. You may scare someone to death.....

Type your cut contents here.- Haha...I just came out of the shower. If you didn't knew people take showers like this, naked, said
JJ as he admired himself into the big mirror on the wall.
- I look good...don't you think?
- Whatever you...Micky's voice stopped as Jae was in front of him...again....and still naked...
Pearl shaped diamond water drops where slipping on his white pale skin...running down his body, chest...to reach ...what was this feeling?...
- You pervert....JJ shouted....where are you looking?.....
- Me?...nowhere....
- Don't lie to me...you're blushing...Could it be that you like me? grinned JJ.
- So conceited my dear hyung, how could I like you?...I like girls.... stop mistaking me as one of your
fangirls. Now please move away and let me work...
- You're no fun at all today Chun......What are you working on?....he asked as he picked up one of
the music sheets laying near the piano...Kiss shita...
- Give it back to me...and please stop sticking your nose into my things...
- Ok...I've got it. You're in a very bad mood today.....

"What's wrong with me?...why am I so mean to JJ?... if he feels like wearing no cloths I don't care...why is so hot in this room?"....it was winter and the windows were wide opened...still he felt
like he was having a fever.....lately he always felt like that....

- Hey, what pervert things are you two doing here...U-know joked, as he peeked into the room and
found the naked JaeJoong staring over the shoulder of a lost deep in thoughts YooChun....
- Nothing...I just took a shower...JJ answerd as YooChun mind was still somewhere far away.........

- I'm taking a shower too, said Micky suddenly.....

- Is he ok? asked U-know.
- I think so..probably he didn't sleep enough last night.
- Ok...I'll leave now....please put some cloths on you...remember what happened last time when Max
saw you...
- Ok, ok...I didn't forgot it.
- I don't mind it at all, U-know smiled broadly, but well, you can blame the poor guy having such
nightmers after you stole his first kiss a few years ago.
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It felt good....the cold shower......it was like it freezed all his fears and worries...yes, maybe that was
why he always liked it when it was cold....leaving the windows wide open during winter...poor JJ...he
never complained...or maybe he doesn't mind it at all...

Out of nowhere the image of a naked JJ popped in front of his eyes.....

Why is he thinking at this?....he felt like the water wasn't cold enough...he wanted to stop that
feeling...the heat...behind his back......a warm hand touched his shoulder.......

- Micky, please don't be mad at me...I'll help you finish that song...ok!?...JJ wispered as he gently
rubbed his back...

Micky looked down...silence...his heart aked...he wanted to...

Lips...so sweet, cherry like lips...JaeJoong's lips?....what's happening to him?.... to them?....JJ didn't
rejected the kiss.....his mind was blank....he just knew it felt good....he knew he wanted more...

But then he stopped and looked deep into JJ's eyes........

The sound of the cold water falling down became like a distant mellody....fading away...he couldn't
feel the icy water drops anymore....they turned into a milky haze floating around...

- I'm sorry JJ...said Chun as he kissed those lips once more...
- I want more..I don't know why..but I want more....wispered JJ gazing at Chun's full lips...

Jae was the one who kissed him this time....it was a deep, passionate kiss...his heart was beating
faster and faster....like thousands and thousands of butterflies...JJ's soft sweet like candy lips were
searching for his....he was happy....and hopped JJ is too....

Losing control he craved for more... Yoochun entangled his arms around JJ's waist...pushing him towards the wall...

- Yoochun, JJ wispered...putting his arms around Chun's shoulders...

Chun moaned as he felt the touch......Inside him a misterious clock started to tick in a crazy
rythm...his skin wanted to feel JJ's...the world was spinning around....his hands were running
unstopable exploring each part of the one he hold in his arms...it felt like they were in a trance...he
found himself sliding down on JJ's body till it reached that point...thant part....he grabbed JJ's risen
manhood making him groning of pleasure...JaeJoong responded rubbing and pushing himself as
close as he could...as he wanted to become one with him...the preasure of his hips hurt....he felt
Jae's tongue leaving his lips down to other parts of his body...

- JJ...stop...he said, when for a second it seemed that he came back to his senses...
- I want you to be happy...
- But I am happy...
- I want you to allways be happy.

YooChun grabbed JJ's hand pulling him out of the bathroom ...

Then he kneeled down in front of his lover while stearing deep into his eyes...he wanted to see him,
to hear him....it made him feel even better...he was burning, inside out....as he sucked in JJ's cock
he thought he wouldn't mind burning like that forever... at that moment JJ's whines were like a
perfect melody ...

- So good....it feels so good...JJ moaned again trembeling in a imense lust...I feel like I can't bear this anymore...I...

JJ whined...pleasure could be read on his face...his half oppened lips....Chun knew only by looking
into Hero's eyes that he wants him too...

He stood up as JJ grabbed his shoulders pushing him into his bed........

When did it turned out like this?...Chun asked himself as he unstoppable was craving for more..

JaeJoong-ah...Chun shouted...when he suddenly enterd him....pushing himself each time more and
more inside.......he felt like they aren't two beings anymore...it felt like they were one body, one soul,
one heart.....JJ's sweating body, his load grasps turned him on like he never thought anyone could
do it.....lust...they were melting, trembeling....

That day they did it over and over again..insanly, blindly...till the last drop of energy left their bodis...

He felt asleep.....to wake up later in JJ's arms....it felt warm......it felt cozy...it felt like home...was
that love? ...he finally wasn't afraid, not anymore.......he wanted to stay like this forever.....

[PG-13]Forbidden fruit

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 19:14:33 GMT

"Love....why does it have to hurt?....I just want to be free....to hold your hand and run carelessly on the streets........feel the wind blowing through my hair......see your bright smile.....your cheerful laugh filling my ears...taste the warmth of your lips...feel your love growing inside me...I can't take it anymore...I want to run away...I want to hide............If I'll stay I may hurt you....I don't want to, but sometimes I can't control myself...All I feel it just burst out....."

Type your cut contents here.- Jae, aren't you cold ?...Come inside....
- Mmm...Chun....yes, I'll come in.....
- We should go to sleep...tomorrow we'll have a full day.......But what's wrong ?...are you ok ?...your eyes are....
- I'm ok, I answered, while closing the door leaving behind the chilly Tokyo night breeze....., my eyes are ok...it's just the wind.
- If you say so...I know you tell me everything...
- Yes...I always do that. Chunnie, aren't you sometimes tired of everything ?, I asked still glancing the countless city lights.
- Uhh !...what do you mean by everything ?
- Hmm...forget it...I guess I'm kind of moody today..
- I can see that.....come, lets take a shower together, you smiled while resting your hand on my shoulder.
- You go alone...I already took mine.....I wanted to go to sleep earlier today...
- Can you at least come to rub my back, you whispered making puppy eyes like usually....
- I'm sorry, my head hurts, I can't help you today, you go and do it yourself.
- Ok, but you better don't ask me for a massage later, because I won't give you that, and you slammed the bathroom door behind you.
- I'll be probably sleeping by the time you finish your shower,but as a response all I could hear was Micky mumbling.

"It's not something so unusual to take showers with Chun, when we have time we even take a bubbling bath all five of us in our big jacuzzi. But lately I just can do that...at least not taking a shower with Chun...that's to much for me...seeing you naked...no way...and that tattoo...that tattoo that turned from hope into torment....Am I not longer your mate ?...Was I ever that ?....your half, your soulmate?...Why you even wanted in the fist place to take those tattoos ?....I could never understood it ?.........as for me, you will always be my soul, the essence of my being, existence....I can feel each of your fears, anguishes...whenever I see tears rolling down on your checks, I can't bear it.....I can't think of anything, all I want is to make you smile again....I forget about myself, about who I am and unconsciously I hug you, trying hard to stop with my hands the salty rivers that furrow your face......I know that you are lonely....behind that playful and cheerful mask you are wearing you hide your gloominess and sadness.....if only you could let me melt with my love the ice that surrounds your heart...but it is to late now.........."

-Are you already sleeping ?, I could hear when the door opened and the light from the bathroom threw your shadow on the wall.....

"Would this by the way I'll see you for the last time, as a shadow...I don't want it to be like this..but I already made my decision....it took me some time... now I know what I have to do...I wanted to stay, I've tried so hard...but as long it's better for you I don't care........"

-Brrr...so cold......,I could hear while you were slipping under my blanket.

I didn't make any move, any noise........I just wanted to fall asleep in your arms for the last time...

- How could it be so cold..you whispered again...,Lucky that I have you here to keep me warm, you said pushing yourself closer to me so I could feel your eyelashes tickling my neck, throwing arrows through my entire body.

"I want so bad to face you, turn around... so bad......please take you hands of me..... your embrace......how can something be so sweet and bitter in the same time ?....your like a forbidden fruit...I'm doomed to see, but I can't taste........how soft are your lips, how do you sound while giving yourself to someone, how does your passion feels.....this night I'll put an end to everything...I'll leave all behind, heading towards the infinite unknown......."

My thoughts stopped as I could feel your hand gently tapping my hair........

- My Boo, My Boo what's wrong ?...I can sense your pain...did you forget that we are soulmates....that we are bound together.....I wish you could tell me what bothers you..........

I could feel then your wet lips touch near my ear

"What was that ?.....why ?....why?"

I just couldn't hold on anymore ...I turned around..........

- Why Chun?
- Huh ? Aren't you sleeping?
- Leave that. Why did you kissed me ?
- Because, just because.
- Because what?
- I just felt like doing that.

I grabbed your hands , and like a crazy person I pulled you closer to me.......

-You can't do that to me, you just can't !
- Why, why I can't ? why are you so angry ?

I could felt my blood rushing trough my body.

-You can't do that, because...because of how I feel..can't you see that.....

My cheeks where burning.......it seemed like even the air I breath was burning.....I closed my eyes......Waiting....for you........